metal-fusion

Welcoming Abode The wind from my lungs is the only unsettlement to keep me from slipping back into unconsciousness. It feels like I have been trapped for weeks now, though it might only be hunger that drags seconds into hours. This corner that I have made into my new home is all I know and is all that is familiar to me now. The air seemed to be trying to push me out, telling me that I should not be here and I am unwelcome in this place. Everything emphasized how unfamiliar these four walls are to me. I don’t know why or how I’m here, only that I am. My head is pounding from straining my eyes in the darkness I now reside in. I ta

crash and break face first into the lake broke free of what i left in my past able to let go at last the soothing water calms my skin i can feel an easing from within the water takes me far from home far far away, into the unknown to a place where nothing hurts where there is no such thing as mindless flirts rushing waters flowing streams can feel my mask loosen at the seams i can actually be myself here i feel so lost, not a soul near this water takes me somewhere i never want to leave and for once, i can finally breathe

Sifting through the sands now known as Hell Breathe in then out, chest rose then fell My eyes swell in tears and compasion Remind myself, not fasion Thoughts keep me awake at night And lost in a maze of dark light Eyes are bleached red Swimming through the thoughts in my head Pour just another glass Searching for another reason to drag my ass Give it all up for a second chance Gnother chance, more than a second glance A breath from the heart of love A fallen thing from above Hit my head and falling down Keep on falling, where is the ground? Lost since my eyes no longer see Crying because without you, I am no longer me

Drain me of my heart, my love Doing this to me from above? Clawing out the very thing you once set free And know it or not, enslaving me The war rages throughout the years It awakens all of my fears It is true that you died in my arms But it is not just my heart that that harms You took my strength and my soul with you I wish I would have listened when you knew I am rotting from the inside out Looking to the sky, I shout I shout your name and missed you last I cower at the thought of the past The thought of you tearing me apart The thought of you draining my heart

My hands are stained blue from the cold embracing steel The wind drifts in a slight chill The leaves rustle in the breeze The silence gently frees My mind from the chains of my sin A deep enveloping feeling coming from within I look to the skies as my consciousness breaks I see a light strong enough to surpass the mountains and penetrate the lakes That takes my breath so far away It leaves me with nothing left to say This light that I have found It releases a hypnotic sound It saw my locked my chains and can set me free Do you see what I see? My heart was once as black as ash But she has the power to make all of that past She

Bleeding passionately, bloody colors The man praying for the child he smothers With his left hand as he writes this down Upon his face, an untimely frown His eyes gleam of blue and yellow A quick grin flashes, a charming fellow Blood falls from his freshly bit lip His smile is stained red at the thought of it The thing that made him who he has become All the days of pain and then those of such fun He has become twisted by his own hand His hair falls out but not my the sliding of the sand Look at him, has he gone mad? It is all over but come on, it is not that bad

I walk to the front of a common crowd I close my eyes because the silence is too loud My palms moisten and vision blurs The air is still, not a person stirs I feel their eyes burning in my own All the people are here but I feel so alone So here it goes, my final test I can feel the butterflies build up in my chest I raise my voice to clear my throat I try to speak but cannot hum a note My thoughts become blank as I just stare I pray this is all a silly nightmare But as I reopen my eyes, the crowd is still here And so is my fear The words lie tasteless on the tip of my tongue I hear my stomach give way to a slight moan My skin

Pain, this pain, never seems to go away And when I close my eyes, it only seems to stay Love, this love, it burns my tears in so deep But my tears taste so sweet Hate, my hate, gives birth to my fear The fear that you are no longer here I am blind, so blind, my dearest friends have left And now I stand, without a second breath My wounds, my wounds, so deep and fresh They put my limits to the test Your love, your love, you are... So strong You lift me up after being down for so long Your tears, your tears, are the source of pain to me To see you cry makes me bleed Your arms, your arms, so soft and assuring I want you to know it

People keep telling lies to me Making me too blind to see The truth of what I have become I look around and ask what I have done A tear runs warm across my face Is it you or is it fate? I do not know how many were lost But all of us are aware of the cost I do not know how to say good night For the last time before the fight I am not sure when it is over Am I lost or am I dead? I just hear you screaming again in my head I just want it to be all over! I am tired of seeing the buildings burning God, I do not now what to do! Fill me! With the knowledge of Solomon I do not want to follow man! God, I fear I am growing hopeless Go

I live in this shell we call my life I hide the gun, I stash the knife My head aches and I turn around I see my world turning upside down And when we thought it was gone We all know inside it is never done This thing inside, it wants out It tears at my flesh it screams and shouts It drinks my blood and shakes my soul It wants out! it needs to grow My hands shake and my knees buckle I hear its screams and the clinging of metal It chains are breaking and will not longer last For he is my future and I am his past

My eyes burn from not blinking I do not know what I was thinking Now I cannot take my eyes of you Where you had been all my life, I had no clue But I knew that at least one thing must be true That the warmth in my new found heart is love for you I want to make you happy To keep you safe, if it means getting bloody If you died, I would soon follow Because without you, there is no tomorrow So as the music continues to play There is one more thing I have to say I want to see as heaven's gates open to you But I never want to beg you adieu